Some time ago I picked up a yard-and-a-half of vintagey plastic tablecloth material (you know the kind – vinyl on one side, batting-ish cloth on the backside). I had no idea what exactly I wanted to do with it, so it’s been hanging around the sewing room for a few months on a roll. Recently I picked up a set of pre-cut quilt squares in the same colour family – and realized that the combination would make the best picnic quilt. Waterproof on one side, soft fabric on the other! Today I laid the printed squares out in haphazard fashion and determined that I’ve got enough room to lay some cotton muslin strips in between the rows – about 26 inches worth of room if I want to use the whole piece of vinyl (which only makes sense because what am I going to do with leftover of this stuff?). Basically this means I need a yard of 54 inch wide muslin and 2 yards of 54 inch wide quilt batting in order to finish this project. In the meantime I’m going to figure out what order I want the printed squares in.
I’ll probably add rock pockets to the corners on the backside for holding things down…. a little more muslin for that and I’m not planning on binding this (hemming from the wrong side and then flipping it forward which also means I won’t be quilting the vinyl side either) which helps ease the amount of fabric in finishing. I’m hoping this will be a fairly straightforward project to get started on this week.
Because 2011 was such an oddly productive year creatively – I wanted to gather all the things I’ve made in one place just to look at them all and admire my industry (not my handiwork, that’s a little lacking – but man I’ve been industrious!) Gathered into one place it turns out that I made at least 48 fabric or crochet items in 2011 – nearly one a week….. which of course necessitates a new goal for 2012… to actually do one creative project/item per week (at least).
My textile goals for 2012 include completing at least one crochet sweater, improving my dressmaking skills – in particular finishing techniques and lining – and incorporating more fabric off my printer into craft items like bags. I’m pretty excited about making more stuff in 2012 since this last year turned out to be so productive. Not only did I learn an incredible amount (sewing clothes and crochet are both new to me since April), but I have tapped into some lovely and inspiring online communities of DIY women making fab things. So without further ado – here is the 2011 Gallery of Making……
It’s the end of the year and am I ever exhausted! So much so that tonight is looking like a big ole relax at home rather than any NYE festivities. I’ve been thinking a lot about the past year and have come to the conclusion that while it’s been pretty good for our household, it’s all around been a difficult year for many people we know, and really for all of Canada (what with the crappy elections and all).
In the spirit of all this reflection I’m thinking about what kind of resolutions can make my next year better than this past one.
So for starters I resolve that:
I could go on of course, living a decent life being the continual project that it is, but I’m going to stop with these mostly very specific things because I believe they are do-able and each of them bring even more goodness to an already good life.
Happy New Year to all of you. Here’s to a 2012 full of light and all the things that make your lives the best they can be!
xox Red Cedar
Although Emma Bovary is hardly a sympathetic protagonist, Madame Bovary is still one of my favourite novels. A little melodramatic in spots perhaps, but I assume that is the effect Flaubert was looking for in his condemnation of the new bourgeois and their destructive capacity for romantic narcissism. For it is a combination of self-aggrandisement and ridiculous romanticism which ultimately undoes the lovely young Emma, wife of a boring country doctor.
In brief, the plot: Emma Bovary marries (of her own choice) Charles Bovary, a country doctor and goes to live with him in a rural area that is barely even a town. Emma’s education has mostly been in the form of romantic novels, and she yearns for an exciting and romantic life such as have been depicted therein – but in the life of a country doctor’s wife she is bored and unable to find love in her marriage. A chance invitation to a ball in the nearest large town exposes Emma even further to a world she wishes to access and she is heartbroken by her life to the degree that Charles finds a new position in a larger village so she might be happier. It is here that despite now having a small child, Emma embarks on two affairs which each last for a few years, and in the process of trying to keep her lovers and the money flowing for their dalliances gets her household into deep debt, destroying her husband’s reputation and finances. Instead of facing what she has done in the end, Emma Bovary swallows arsenic and dies a horrible (unromantic) death, leaving her husband and child behind – a shell of a household.
As you can see, not very sympathetic – but for all that, Flaubert is not merciless to Emma and we are exposed to her motivations throughout the novel – chief being that she believes that life of women to be unfairly constrained. Throughout the novel she makes commentary on how men are free to do as they please, whereas she has never been free to choose her fate. Increasingly, this lack of freedom and choice choke Emma (literally, she comes close to dying from seizures and depression more than once), and she attempts to counterbalance it by acting as a man in her love affairs. In her first affair, she is very much controlled by Alphonse who has both money and an aloofness which puts her in his power, and yet still she at times seizes what she can by boldly coming into his house and disrobing before him. While she seeks to use her sex as the ultimate lure for Alphonse, she ultimately fails when she goes too far in pushing her agenda with him (to run away together), but in her second affair she takes a different tack all together. Because Leon is younger and has been enrapt by Emma for many years, she is able to take the lead in their relations and play the stronger character. In this role Emma is wild and mannish – she smokes cigarettes and drinks, eats heedlessly, borrows money recklessly and pursues sexual dalliances with Leon she ascribes to the masculine freedom she does have.
What Emma seems to really want from the world is the freedom to *be* her first lover Alphonse – a somewhat wild playboy who has enough money to live an exciting life. This is where she locates the passions – in fine food and drink, sex, smoking, beautiful clothing and accessories, and travel to large cities. In her home life of husband and child she sees nothing but tedium (not unlike Alphonse who recoils at the idea of becoming a stepfather) and chains. Interestingly, Emma doesn’t fixate on becoming one of the women in the high-flying community she seeks just above her – but is endlessly fascinated by the men and the access they could grant her to freedom.
Not unlike Edna Pontellier in Kate Chopin’s The Awakening, it is hard to sympathize with Emma – who is actually much more wicked than Edna in the devastation she leaves behind with her suicide…. but at the same time, we can recognize the madness created in a world of such social constraint. Emma’s recklessness comes from a place of surfacing – as though she is drowning and the moments in which she breaks surface it is all she can do to gulp the passions she desperately craves. Rather than thinking about the loans and papers being signed at the local moneylenders, she sees only the possibility for more passions being met rather than the decimation of her family and ultimately her own life. And in this she appears powerless, swept into the current of her beating heart crying out for a different kind of life. An unrealistic life. An unsustainable life. But Emma doesn’t have the self-awareness to see that every piece of silver eventually tarnishes – and she is as caged in delusion as anything else.
At the end of Madame Bovary Emma is frantic in her delusion – that she can raise the money to forestall the bailiffs coming to auction off their household possessions – and she tears from one lover to the next demanding that they find a way to give her what she wants. Here Flaubert draws precisely the lack of substance in Emma’s relationships, the ephemerality of passion which is loyal to no one once it wafts away. Emma’s own personality becomes as insubstantial as she vacillates between being horrified at the notion of prostituting herself (to the country lawyer), and being willing to give herself back to Alphonse if he can come up with the money (despising him when he claims to be short of cash) – desperate for Leon, at least to show his love by stealing from his employer to aid her. Realizing at last that no one will come to her rescue, Emma crams a fistful of arsenic into her mouth in the hope of a peaceful death. Even this is denied of course, as poisoning is anything but peaceful and it takes her more than 24 hours of vomiting blood before she does die. Horrible!
And so we are left with the struggle of women in bourgeois society to find meaning, a moral tale about where meaning is not to be found, a commentary on social hypocrisy, and a condemnation of the stolidity of rational life (for while we don’t blame Charles for what happens, we aren’t particularly enamoured with his lack of fire either). Flaubert’s novel is certainly no “romance” (as often classified) but it is an examination of romantic ideals popular in his time – and a critique of a social order in which the denial of passions (while simultaneously elevating them in popular culture) could turn out to be as damaging as the passions themselves.
I haven’t read this yet – but here is an article by AS Byatt in the Guardian (from 2002) about Madame Bovary which promises to be interesting.
Couldn’t resist the ridiculous this year – because after all, this whole holiday feels as surreal as a houseful of dancing elves.
xoxox