Well. I am back home after ten days of not being. And I wish I had something profound to share with you – but really, I am just re-orienting myself. There is something about Ottawa that drives the writer right out of me. Perhaps it’s just that I find it difficult to write in hotel rooms, or that I am otherwise mentally occupied when there – but my output goes way down the minute I arrive.
Towards the end of my time in Ottawa I found myself getting a little bit angsty and discouraged about things in general. I am definitely feeling the unkind words of others more than normal – all of which bubbled to the surface during and shortly after the convention/election of last weekend. Really I just need to go back to my “real job” for a couple of weeks which is oh so much easier on my psyche.
But really, I am happy to be home, awaiting Brian’s visit this afternoon – a cozy and secure corner of the world.
More shortly, I’ve got stuff to say as soon as I take care of some things..
Last weekend’s union convention is a bit hazy in my mind at the moment, having finished up with four days of politicking with a late-night flight to Ottawa for bargaining. And have I mentioned that I barely ate or slept until a full day after my election? That doesn’t make for the best powers of recollection either. But still, I do remember winning – and in that I’m not delusional.
A newer delegate at the convention who is very involved in the NDP mentioned to me that he found union politics strange because elections aren’t so much fought over one issue or another. A lot of what we do is pretty motherhood stuff and it’s hard not to be *for* better representation of members, for example. His observation was that our elections were more about networks and rapport with people – which is true – and I think stems from the fact that so much of our member representation work is about those things. You really do want to elect someone who gets along with others, who can talk to members in way that is convincing, and who can rouse other people to take action. And I suppose too, that once you are in a union leadership position, your political platform is already decided for you – by convention floor.
All that to say that depending on how someone runs their campaign it can seem a little more or a little less like a popularity contest. Which is pretty much how my opponent ran hers, and not at all how I ran mine.
(I should note here, that the incumbent in the position dropped out two weeks before and threw her support behind me).
My campaign was a straight-forward introduction letter sent by mail two weeks before convention, and then a lot of handshaking and discussion making during the convention itself. I campaigned on the involvement of younger members, better communication in the region, and broadening our community networks – again, it’s motherhood stuff for our union, and it’s what people are asking for. I worked hard at our hospitality event the night before election and met as many new and young delegates as possible over a two day period, I answered questions from dozens of people on all sorts of things, and I heard a lot of complaints about bargaining, our union, and so forth.
On the other side, my opponent handed out no paper at all, didn’t put herself forward to meet new delegates (at least that’s what they told me), and had a campaign strategy that relied on glittery ribbons and the networking abilities of her friends. And no, I am not kidding.
I suppose she figured that the politics would come out at the all-candidates meeting. Or that she was well known enough that people would recognize her contributions over the years (she is indeed a hard-worker which is why I am surprised she handed out no letter of her accomplishments). Or perhaps that I was such an unworthy opponent that no one would vote for me. I’m not sure really.
Up until the all candidates meeting I wasn’t really nervous. I had been stressed in the week leading up to convention, but it wasn’t until about 15 minutes before the meeting that I got an actual case of nerves. Realize that I did not eat almost anything Friday and had not eaten anything Saturday morning either – and I almost never go off food! But I did well there, both in my intro and my answers to questions. I answered “off the script” a lot which I think helped because I drew on examples and things that had happened for me in the union rather than the formula answers that people often give in these situations. Right in the middle of the meeting I looked down at our National Vice-President and got such an intense deja vu that I almost forgot where I was. It was weird.
Then the election. At the last minute a third person entered the race (he had lost the position above it and decided to run down) and so the first vote was 61 in my favour, 40 to my first opponent, and 37 to my last-minute opponent. We needed 70 to take a clear majority and so the last-minute guy was dropped from the ballot and I ended up winning with 85 votes or so at the end. Not a resounding victory, but certainly a clear one that I can be reasonably proud of.
And goddamn – at that point I was just glad it was over. I didn’t feel particularly victorious, but I did feel a tremendous relief.
More elections followed that day and at some point Brian showed up for the international solidarity function that I was responsible for hosting. Quite honestly, the sweetest moment of the whole day was when my guy walked in where I was setting up for the function and congratulated me in person. I am glad he wasn’t there in the run up to the election, but I wanted him there as soon as I had won…. And I can honestly say it was one of the best hello kisses of my life 🙂
I have to go back to my meetings soon, but I’d like to get this posted even though it’s somewhat incomplete. A little slice of convention I guess. And like I said, I’m just glad that it’s over!
(Oh – and for those of you asking about my title? Don’t worry about that, it wouldn’t mean anything to you anyway. What I will say is that it is the #2 spot in my union for BC. Which is a big deal only to people inside my union.)
For those of you who don’t know (and care) – I won my election on Saturday afternoon. I haven’t really slept or eaten like a normal person in days and got into Ottawa last night at midnight. A real update is coming soon – I promise.
My regional union convention starts tomorrow, and from then until Sunday afternoon I will be awash in electioneering and politics. Four days, and then I leave for another bargaining session in Ottawa. Tonight I have to pack for both since between the convention and the trip, I won’t have time to go home.
I’ve given up trying to have a balanced life during particular times (April/May and Sept/Oct being my busiest months) – instead saving up my angst until I get into the periods where less is expected of me. No bargaining in July or August, nothing except work really. When I only have one fulltime job, my life gets a lot easier.
Last night, Brian and I had a scheduling crisis. Or more honestly, I had a crisis over some scheduling details because it’s getting increasingly difficult to fit times together in. There are reasons for that beyond just my crazy work schedule, and the whole thing left me quite frustrated because there are some things about reality that just can’t be changed on a whim. Like finite time, and other people’s issues.
It’s temporary, and it’s part of negotiating a new relationship, and it’s what happens when the two people in the relationship have somewhat complicated lives. This much I know. And it makes it easier to take most of the time. But sometimes I’m not able to overcome the inner child who wants what she wants right now! (And that’s not just a relationship characteristic either).
It’s a good thing we are in love and really digging each other the rest of the time – or the difficult stuff would be even more so. And I suppose it’s what relationships are – measures of one thing against another. On the one hand I’m not used to having to schedule around multiple people’s needs, or actively missing someone when I or they are away. But on the other, it is deeply comforting to have someone in my life who is really “on my side”. That’s something I had forgotten all about – it’s been ages since anyone in my life filled the role of partner and cheerleader 🙂
And you know, last night he came to my home with three kinds of good cheese, olive tapenade, bread and dried figs – plus four books for me (two graphic novels, a history of mug shots and a novel that looks decent)…. Just because he felt like it. Which is as good a physical manifestation of “I love you,” as I have ever seen.
Am I worried? Not at all. But stressed? Yes. I’ve got an election coming up, a busy month in May with four scheduled trips (Victoria, Nelson, Ottawa, Calgary), and the sense that I don’t have the time to put into making the changes I need to see in my life and my relationship. Colliding anxieties, and the realization that I can’t do everything at the same time.
I’m looking forward to being bored again come June.
(PS – for those of you who haven’t seen a picture of my sweetie, I took some on the weekend finally and there’s a fairly decent one posted here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/redcedar/)