Taking the ten percent shift a little further.

I’m at home today, hoping to battle off the sick-ish feeling I’ve had all week: exhaustion, scratchy throat. Not really flat-out with it, but limping along the way we get with the onset of a cold. It’s lots of vitamins here and good food, a sick day from work and hopefully I’m on the right track again by tomorrow.

I’m thinking this morning about a new campaign started by a provincial union called The Ten Percent Shift which is all about pledging publicly to buy local — a shift in itself as the union movement has traditionally run “buy Canadian” and “buy union” campaigns without ever giving the environmental impacts of shipping a second thought. But in keeping with “greening” the labour movement and revitalizing our local communities, CUPE is putting itself out there to encourage shifting 10 percent of our purchases to local goods and services. An admirable goal to encourage, but one that I don’t think goes far enough.

About a year ago now, Brian and I pledged changing some of our consumer habits in order to reduce our own carbon footprint after we read Bill McKibben’s book Eaarth (which presents the need to do so in the most urgent of ways). I’ve always considered myself a somewhat ecological consumer – but the reality is, North American consumer design pretty much works against being so at every turn – and to get out of that trap you’ve got to work at it a little bit.

While we are far from perfect, some of what we’ve elected to do to reduce our carbon footprint in the last year includes:

  • Planting a garden.
  • Canning our own food in the summer from local produce. We purchased most of our produce in Keremeos where it is very cheap (on our way back from camping) and put up tons of food inexpensively.
  • Buying local and in-season as much as is possible. To do this, we signed up for the NOW BC Co-op and when the Main Street Farmer’s market was open, I also shopped there once a week. The only fresh food we are getting these days that does not come from BC or Washington is bananas and avocados, and those we purchase fair trade through the co-op. This of course means eating lots of canned local foods in winter.
  • Switching back to using dried beans instead of canned. We eat a lot of beans in our house, and although I used to always buy dried beans I got lazy over the years and went with canned. Which essentially means shipping water all over the place, and eating food loaded with salt for preservative. I’m really pleased we’ve switched back on this, even if it does need a little more prep work (our beans and lentils come from Saskatchewan and Washington State primarily).
  • Making our own beer and wine. Again, we don’t need to ship water all over the place and beer-making in particular is so uber-cheap it’s ridiculous.
  • Taking more books out of the library rather than purchasing them.
  • Buying bulk and storing food. It’s just much easier on the environment to purchase larger bags of things like flour, barley, rice, oats etc – and set up proper food storage at home then making multiple trips to the grocery. It also gives us the chance to source and buy local – and it brings down the price of organic goods significantly, which your chain grocer doesn’t really provide for.

Over the next year I’d like to work on consuming less overall, canning double the amount of food we did last year, and growing more food as well as getting the honey production started in our backyard. I’d also like to get back to cycling and walking for all local errands rather than getting in the car because I feel pressed for time.  When we do consume, I would like it to be from locally-owned business as often as possible – which means paying more for things (Walmart is cheap for a reason – and that reason is usually the tiny fingers of children making your goods) and buying less of them.

I get the ten percent shift though, because for a lot of people moving away from Walmart, Costco, Safeway, IKEA, and other convenient and cheap retailers is inconceivable. How do we get buy without uber-cheap food and goods given that wages are generally low and the cost of living so high in areas like housing? To which the answer for each of us is to look at how we consume. Do we need so much? Do we throw out a lot of the cheap food we do buy? (Stats say yes, that Americans and Canadians throw out on average 50% of the food they purchase because they won’t eat leftovers or let food go bad before using it). Is it possible to purchase items second-hand rather than new?

Really, it’s all in the questions we ask ourselves and how we answer them which gets us to shift any of our lifestyle behaviours. In our household, we have a *long* way to go before I will consider us truly ecological (as evidenced by my Cash Diet post of last week) but for the moment, at least we’re asking the questions and trying to figure out where the answers take us.

The anxiety of saying no.

I was reminded again yesterday that I am not very good at saying “No”. To anyone. For any reason. And even if my rationale is sound, when I do say no, I find myself wracked with an anxious guilt that takes days to wear off.

Yesterday’s episode hinged on a request to attend a meeting in Ottawa next week for my union. By the time I got approval to arrange a flight, no cheap options  were available for the day I would have to fly – leaving me with the option of giving up my whole weekend, or showing up a day late which would really nullify my attendance in a number of ways. After this autumn’s collective bargaining roadshow, some of which took place overtop of my marriage celebrations, I am more than a little reticent to give up more time to the union and so decided that travelling on a Saturday is just not an option for me given other things already committed to this weekend.

So I wrote last night and said that given all this I would NOT be attending the meeting. And then promptly called B. and cried through my anxiety upon doing so.

Odd, because having a good reason to cancel this trip is a huge relief – I’ve been feeling stressy about the fact my honeybees are supposed to be delivered this week and we have friends in town and I’ve gotgardening projects I would like to spend time on if the weather permits. Not to mention that I’m never keen to fly east in the winter, particularly as snowstorms continue to be predicted for the area and that means a good chance of getting stuck out there.

But the NO part of this has me guilt-wracked. Feeling as though I’m shirking responsibilities and everyone will think bad things about me. Worried about missing out on something important (even though I know that won’t be the case because none of these meetings are really that important). Stressed about disappointing people who have supported me over the years. Fear of potential retaliation if I decide to run for another position later on down the road (doubtful, but it could happen)…..

Apparently this is all tied to self-esteem and lack of it – an issue that I have struggled with (tied to depressive episodes in particular). Specifically, it is a habit of putting others feelings and needs before our own – even to the degree that I believe a faceless entity like my union or employer have needs to which I must always acquiesce. According to this psychologist, the only way out of this trap is to develop the ability to say no and to be assertive around one’s own needs (without guilt) – thus bolstering self-esteem and supporting self-care.

The reality in this case is that my union’s “need” is to put me on a cheap flight, and that superscedes their “need” to have me at the meeting next week which became apparent in the negotiations I was having with the office over my flights. Upon realizing that, I can see that this is a situations considering the balance of competing needs is important. The need for my organization to be cost-conscious against my need for rest days with family and friends, and time spent around home.

And why should I feel guilty upon determining that my need is just as important (or more important to me) than someone else’s?

Yeah – exactly. I shouldn’t. So I’m working on that, but still proud of myself for saying no in the first place even though I’ve got some reisdual guilt to work through afterwards.

 

Barley yummy!

It’s a recipe kindof day since I just enjoyed the leftovers of this tasty dish for lunch – barley being my favourite of the whole grains (we use whole, not pearled or hulled barley in this). It’s like a healthy tuna casserole and feeds four with leftovers.

Recipe provided by BarleyFoods.

Barley-Tuna Casserole

2 cups cooked pearl or whole grain barley, directions below
1 can (15 ounces) pinto beans, undrained
1 can (6 ounces) water-packed tuna, drained and flaked
1-1/2 cups shredded sharp Cheddar cheese, divided
1/2 cup non-fat milk
1 egg, beaten
1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice
1 teaspoon dill weed
1 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce
1/2 teaspoon dry mustard
1/2 teaspoon salt

Preheat oven to 350° F. Coat 8-inch square baking pan with nonstick vegetable spray. Combine cooked barley with beans, tuna, 1 cup shredded cheese and remaining ingredients. Spread in prepared baking pan. Top with remaining 1/2 cup shredded cheese. Bake 45 to 50 minutes or until cooked through. Let stand 5 to 10 minutes before serving. Makes 6 servings.

Per serving: calories 319, protein 23g, carbohydrates 29g, fiber 6g, fat 13g, cholesterol 115mg, sodium 646mg.

In case you are unfamiliar – some barley cooking instructions:

Pearl barley: In medium saucepan with lid, bring 3 cups water to a boil. Add 1 cup pearl barley and return to boil. Cover, reduce heat to low and cook 45 minutes or until barley is tender and liquid is absorbed. Makes about 3 cups.

Hulled (whole grain) barley: In medium saucepan with lid, bring 3 cups water to a boil. Add 1 cup hulled barley and return to boil. Cover, reduce heat to low and cook 50-55 minutes or until barley is tender. Hulled barley tends to absorb less liquid than pearl barley. It may be necessary to pour off any unabsorbed liquid after 50-55 minutes of cooking. Makes about 3 cups.

Hulless (whole grain) barley: In medium saucepan with lid, bring 4-1/2 cups water to a boil. Add 1-1/2 cups hulless barley and return to boil. Cover, reduce heat to low and cook 50-55 minutes or until barley is tender. Hulless barley tends to absorb less liquid than pearl barley. It may be necessary to pour off any unabsorbed liquid after 50-55 minutes of cooking. Makes about 3 cups.

Waiting for the bees to come.

I don’t have photos yet, but last night our top-bar hive was deliverd by the carpenter I hired to build it. (Yes, I was planning on building it myself but I ran out of time given my limited carpentry skills and the fact the bees will arrive shortly so I hired someone off Craigslist). Now I’m starting to get nervous about getting the bees into the hive when they arrive – but so thankfully, there are about a hundred videos of people doing this on YouTube. Posted above is my favourite, and the one that gave me the most confidence of the ones I watched. I’m not sure about doing this without a bee-hat and no gloves as this fellow does, but the trick seems to be remaining calm even when the bees crawl all over you.

I’ll have pictures of our hive soon, and am busy now reading as much as I can before the arrival of my bees. A little anxious and also a lot excited……

Back in town, waiting for spring.

The road to Port Alberni on Thursday afternoon.

I inadvertently took a break from post-a-day this weekend as I didn’t get enough downtime in Victoria to really focus on anything. Blogging a couple of hours in a day where I’m not interacting with anyone. Not because it that long to write a post, but I just need a little space in order to do so.

In any case, I’m back in Vancouver after a somewhat eventful drive to Port Alberni on Thursday where I got stuck on the highway for two hours behind a lineup of cars held back due to a snowstorm over “the hump” (Alberni Summit), and then a trip down the island to Victoria to visit family and friends. Last night we returned home and my beehive carpenter came by to drop-off and set up my beehive, though it was too dark to get a decent photo. I’ve got a little more finishing to do on it which will hopefully get done in the next few days, but otherwise I’m feeling like I’m prepped to get my package of bees! Over at Among the Weeds tomorrow I should have a photo and a bit of a discussion about that.

I’m due to go out of town again on Sunday, but I hope that the long flight to Ottawa and alienating hotel room actually fuel writing in that case rather than stifling it. Still waiting to hear if I can even get a flight out due to some kind of crazy lack of flight availability. Can’t say I’d be sorry if I wasn’t able to go…. I’m feeling the need to spend some time around home right now getting some sewing projects underway and prepping my garden once the ground thaws again (hopefully by next week – we’re having yet another cold snap which is unusual for this late in the winter).

More better postings to come this week once I’ve got my head wrapped around work and home again….. and I’m excited to get some pictures of the garden as it unthaws and our bees come to live there over the next couple of weeks. Spring is coming soon, I’m sure of it. Once more thaw and we’ll be there!