the sixth step

“step six says you are not who they say you are, even if you do what they say you do.”

this is the sixth step in the 12-step recovery program from western civilization – written into a novel by casey maddox called the day philosophy dies.

this is also something said to me by a friend 8 months ago as we grappled with our activism, our shared sorrows, our paths forward. he said, “you are not what they tell you to be, you are a wild animal, and you did not create this. you need to find a way home.”

how these reoccuring themes keep coming back at me, in the people i meet, in the books i choose to read, in the path towards health i seek. who are all of us but wild animals caged in concrete, pacing our cells and pawing at simple reflections of ourselves in media and shopping malls?

the aforementioned book lets us imagine what it would take to bring civilization to a halt, twists the top off possibilities, and throws out subversive ideas like red pills.

it’s worth a read, i couldn’t put it down once i started it.

making pretty pictures

a small patch i finished for my friend jasmine tonight. it’s a kingfisher (in case bird identification isn’t your strong point)

action-packed video

so – after much futzing around – i have posted two videos of the flying folk army in action at seattle’s folklife – the first one is 5 and a half minutes long and features clips from 4 different songs – the second is a song i recently wrote (watch real close and you will notice me drop a line near the end – that’s how new it is…)

they are both large files (20-30 megs), but any smaller and you can’t see anything. please download them before trying to watch (don’t try to watch them on the server or resist will be unhappy). don’t look here for fancy editing – i don’t have much room on my computer for rendering video unfortunately.

thanks to k. at for shooting this video in the rain – and to our seattle friends who came out to see us play!

apocalyptic fact of the day

according to a weekend report in the uk’s independent a new study shows that oceanic “dead zones” are on the increase globally and now number at about 150. this number is double that of 10 years ago.

dead zones in the sea are created as part of a chain of events starting with an excess of nutrients – nitrogen being key – that build up and cause excessive blooms of phytoplankton and other alages. when these blooms die and rot, they consume oxygen at a rapid rate, suffocating all other marine life.

agricultural fertilizers, vehicle and factory emissions, and human wastes are to blame for the increase in dead zones, some of which take up 70,000 square kilometres and are growing. the impacts of such zones on fish and fisheries is fairly obviousl as large swaths of the world’s seas become uninhabitable for any plant or animal life.

on getting evicted

on my drive home from seattle this afternoon i thought about what i was
going to post to my journal when i returned – some observations about
my trip, ideas passed onto me by a friend of mine, a report of the
but when i walked in my door, there was a sealed envelope on the floor
– shoved through the door in my absence.

after months of no information, rumours, and outright lies from my
rental company, they have finally put this apartment (and all the other
rentals in the building) up for sale.
of course, it wasn’t the building owner (a government agency – BC
Housing), or the rental company who deigned to tell us – but the
realtors who are selling the place – in a note that informs me when the
viewing times will be and that i can call them to inquire about
purchasing my home. of course they will do the utmost to ensure minimal
disruption of my privacy but they would like me to stay away during the
viewings. – thanks… wouldn’t want to upset the happy purchasers
tromping around looking for a bargain (which they likely won’t find

i knew it was coming, and i will call to inquire about the list price
(we were told we would get first purchasing option but that seems to
have gone out the window) – but it seems as though i will be evicted
sometime before september with a month’s rent paid for moving expenses.

now begins the soul search about where i want to live – stay in the
‘hood or look for greeneer pastures? a house off the drive or trailer
on a plot of land? oh – the big questions go around and around – but
can’t be answered until i figure a few more things out….

will write about my trip south later (after a shower…)

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