princess of the bureaucracy

so today i apparently am the princess of knowledge in this grand castle called the government. so great is my ability to analyze policy that i have made several people very happy this morning by answering their questions on obscure regulations… and then i talked to our tech department and it looks like they are going to allow me to purchase a transparency scanner for a major image digitizing project i proposed to my boss a couple of weeks ago….

hurrah! i am embracing my inner bureaucrat….

so things are good in meg-land. last night i laid down a fiddle and a vocal track on a friend’s new album (joey only) – which went much better than i expected and contributed to my general state of well-being. i haven’t been playing much lately and i forgot how good it can feel. the song i was contributing to is called “fire on anarchist mountain” which has a nice bluegrassy feel to it….. when it’s mixed down it’s going to sound really nice. i’m going back on thursday to lay down tracks on two other songs as well, which i have to work on tonight.

i’m on day ten of the no sugar/flour/dairy cleanse and my naturopath advised me on monday that to make it effective, i should stay the course for a month. it certainly is getting easier, and i am eating a lot healthier as a result of cutting out the major components of processed foods. i feel light all over (physically and mentally) which is a little ungrounding, and i think essential to getting me moved out of my neighbourhood. ungrounded = unattached – or at least less attached.

going… going… gone?

on friday a woman made an offer on my apartment that was accepted. although she is fearful of the noise potential, she seems almost committed to going through with the purchase. if that happens then i will get my notice for october 1st which means i will aim to move in the beginning of september.

i’m thinking of planning a party before i move out of this apartment.

my biggest accomplishment of the week was to finish packing my office/den today which has taken up several hours of my recent life. i don’t know how i could have had that much stuff in my small den, but in the end i hauled out 4 bags of garbage. mostly old files and papers. i am getting rid of my desk – so let me know if you want it.

i have become ruthless in my quest to rid my life of extraneous *stuff*.

my father and i went to the sunshine coast this weekend and poked around. checked out a cheap house that has a super-cute yard but is *small* and in need of some serious redoing. it started me on thinking about buying a place again – something i would like to do soon amid fears of perpetually renting.

we’ll see.

now purging my life of uneccesary things, i am also stripping parts of myself away – making myself new in order to be freed from the grasp of my accumulated life. it is by turns painful and renewing – and i find myself looking back every few minutes to make sure that this is really something i want to do.

this is without a doubt the most anxiety-inducing move i have ever been through. apparently my psyche doesn’t like change.

romanian memory

one of the things that has alway stuck with me since i was a teenager was after the downfall of ceausescu in romania (1989) when the common romanian people were allowed to go through his houses for a tour to see what kind of lifestyle he was living while they scraped by in poverty. i remember the news reports showed throngs of people shuffling through his main mansion, stuffed with fine artifacts and artwork, utterly stunned to see the riches he had been accumulating secretly and at their expense – the outrage those people displayed at how they had been misled by their leader and
“comrade”.

i often wonder if it will be like that as civilization collapses – will regular folk finally get to see the criminal wealth that some have lived with at the expense of the rest of us? and we will be shocked and horrified at what was done for the privelege of a few for so many decades?

friday day five

so it’s friday – and day five of no sugar – wheeee!

i’m actually feeling pretty good today and despite my whacked out mood this week i’ve managed to accomplish quite a lot including:

  • setting up a investment savings account to put my savings towards a house in
  • writing a long letter to a friend in jail
  • packing boxes
  • visiting with a friend from out of town
  • mailing off all the stuff i sold on ebay
  • finishing off another section of the rug i am working on
  • a whole bunch of random stuff at work including troubleshooting other people’s problems with a system i set up, and researching and ordering hardware to get my next project started
  • following up on a lot of email

and i also have agreed to record on a friend’s album so next week i’m going to meet up with him and some others to see what we can lay down. i haven’t really been playing much fiddle lately (or singing for that matter), though i want to! so i think that working on someone else’s project will be useful to kicking me in the ass a little bit.

there have been a bunch of people viewing my apartment this week, including one woman who has been back twice with her realtor. she seems pretty keen and i’m hoping she will put an offer in on it so i can get on with scheduling the rest of my life. i am trying to figure out going to cali in october and the ffa has been invited to play a show in sf at the same time… so i hope that as a band we will be able to get it together to do a mini-tour and i can fold in visits to folks at the same time. we’ll see – the band has been a little dysfunctional as of late so i’m not too optimistic we will get enough members committing to the trip.

and on it goes….

more fiction on the collapse

by some strange happenstance, i ended up reading two pieces of collapse fiction in the past two weeks. after reading the day philosophy dies by casey maddox, i picked up a copy of margaret atwood’s oryx & crake to take with me on the weekend trip to washington.

i’m not going to do a compare and contrast here of the two novels except to say one is a lot more hopeful than the other – and what that really comes down to is how much of the natural world is left when civilization collapses entirely. a world still having some of its natural plant and animal species left (as well as a functioning ozone layer and some passable water source), has a much better chance of recovery than one in which everything left behind is a tainted and genetically-engineered mess.

the collapse of civilzation is topic that has quickly moved from the fringe of eco-politics to the fore in international policy debates on the coming oil crisis. as this month’s national geographic points out “humanity’s way of life is on a collision course with geology” when it comes to the peak of oil production vis a vis demand worldwide. dead zones in the world’s oceans (caused by nitrates from the run-off of industrial production), high rates of carcinogens in human tissue and mother’s milk, the draining of major underground aquifers and severe climate change warnings – all point to a siginficant fork in the road of western civilization in the very near future.

for three million years, human-like species have lived on this planet and in the last 5000 or so we have come very close to bringing about its total destruction (and most of that in the last 500 years). quite remarkable really – and visions such as atwood’s in oryx and crake (though somewhat overstated) are not entirely implausible. the main problem i have with this piece of fiction is it is set far into a future we will likely never see due to the ongoing collapse of global resources. although the book is overwhelmingly dark, atwood is a bit of an optimist on the timeline for the fall of civlization and the ultimate failure of humans as a species to survive.

all things considered, though – it’s a worthwhile read – another book i couldn’t put down, though i didn’t find much hope in the outcome – whereas i did in the day philolsophy dies. that purely being the result of the authors’ differences in purpose. as my friend bear commented on the phone last night about apocalyptic fiction in general – “these books serve as both a call to action and also a warning” – maddox’s book fills the former purpose, while atwood’s fits the latter.

read both in a row and your mind will spin.