Red Cedar

there some serious computer frustrations going on for me at the moment. for some reason, i can not access resist or anything using its nameservers from work – unless i go through a proxy connection. this would be fine except to use a proxy slows things down, and at the moment the proxy service i use is barely moving. this problem is the root cause of the non-update yesterday (well, that and i was way too tired when i got home from work to be bothered) – and may continue to plague me….

i am back to work this week after the move and the commute has begun. for the first time in my life i travel more than 20 minutes to get to work – in total it means 15 minutes in my car, 40 minutes on the ferry and 40 minutes on the bus – plus waiting and walking times. this adds up to just under two hours each way. crazy! and i am considering ditching my car on the sunshine coast side and taking the bus instead which will bring it to about 2 hours there, 2 hours 15 minutes home. i don’t particularly like driving first thing in the morning before the coffee has hit… it’s unnerving to think of all those sleepy commuters on the road every day…..
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over the past few days, small moments of “what am i doing?” have crept into my hum of moving, unpacking and getting settled. the quiet here gives me time to query, to think, and to just be by myself without feeling the collective psychic energy of thousands of other people living in close quarters around me. there is definitely a feeling of “space” out here i never felt in the city, as though i can draw a full breath without taking up someone else’s. i have not been so aware of this feeling before when hiking or traveling outside the urban, but am paying attention to it here as a new luxury.
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i have landed, and despite a few last minute odds and ends everything went as would be expected. the last three days have been spent moving, cleaning, and unpacking. the worst of it is now over, but the next two days will be spent unpacking still as i own a lot of stuff.

i will post more, and pictures of my new place tomorrow. it is very quiet here and when i turn out the lights at night it is actually dark. please feel free to call me over the weekend as i will be home and puttering about.

i am packed – i am ready – and tomorrow morning at 9 o clock the movers show up at my door and i am officially no longer from east vancouver. you will know when the header says “blogging the collapse from roberts creek” that i have arrived.

i am burned out from moving things around and stressing about last minute details – but i wanted to post to let y’all know it’s really happening. firetrap has written a rather kind bit about my move on her blog, it almost made me cry (which isn’t hard these days)….

moving is having a greater impact on my emotional well-being than i care to admit.

i have been saying goodbye and goodbye and goodbye to all the little things that have made my world for the past 9 years – turks on saturday morning, the shops where i know the owners, the people i see on my way to work whose names i have never known. small things, to be replaced by others – but a settling sadness inescapable when one has had a great love for their neighbourhood at some time in their life (and for most of my time in this place, i have). east vancouver brought me from adolescence into adulthood and has provided a startling and colourful backdrop for so many major events in my life – it’s hard to part with that which has been a support and a comfort, even in all its noise and odour.
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