Red Cedar

from the holidays:

For more photos from Kyla’s solstice party (and a few of some cormorants I took on the 24th) check out the Solstice and cormorants set on Flickr.

All 9000 words of Darren’s statement are now posted at his website. Please go there to download his essay Fired Back: Some words in response to Operation Backfire.

Working like mad at the moment, there will be no time for posts between now and Friday – but just wanted to remind y’all that I’m having a Solstice Party this Friday starting at around 6:30 or 7. Potluck, bring candles to light the longest night of the year etc. etc. You know the drill, it’s a party at Meg’s house 🙂

And it promises to be a good one to kick off the holiday season. See you all there.

Today marks the 3rd anniversary since the passing of Bob Everton – I was just reminded by someone accidentally. I still feel cheated. I really do.

The other night I was surfing randomly and came across this little piece of Shel Silverstein loveliness – The Missing Piece meets the Big O.

The message of the parable is obvious, and it fits with the thoughts I’ve had about relationship dynamics lately; being with someone new has set me to thinking about the good and the bad of those who came before. It’s not even so much thinking about who the people in my life were, but who I was in each of those pairings.

In the last two years I’ve been through some pretty radical internal changes sparked by both adversity and success. My meditiations in this blogspace have included love, loyalty, friendship, strength, beauty, solace, prayer, courage, spirit, and the illusions of security; not just for the sake of writing, but because I was living through each of those reflections as I showed them to you.

Now life has evened out to some degree, I hope I can hold onto what I have seen in myself and keep my focus on those lessons. I don’t expect my emotions to fall into some sort of “steady-state”; I only hope to have perspective on them as they flux and move.

Having let go of a lot of my anger and alienation, I feel stronger now in *all* my relationships than I have in a long time. I suppose I don’t feel like I have a missing piece or am a missing piece – I am just me and I am very grateful for the people with whom I “roll”.