an auspiscious start to the new year.

finally feel like i have got through a lot of waiting work on the mental desk – overhauled darren’s support site, prettied up chelsea’s ….. wrote a bunch of email, answered a few requests…. of course, there is still more to do this weekend to actually tie up all the loose ends that have sprung in the last few weeks, but i’m feeling a bit closer to finished at the moment. if you are someone in the ether expecting a response to a personal email i apologize for ignoring you – support work is very immediately demanding, though it will die down soon in the long foot-drag towards trial.

as this sunday opens the year of the dog, and darren’s birth year is dog – i decided to increase my chances of an auspiscious new year (in connection with my dog brother) by handing out chocolate coins to my co-workers – i figure a little magic can’t hurt right now and it made for a great excuse to eat chocolate. if only i could post a few treats in the mail to inverness jail – but for some reason the prison system frowns upon the sending of consumables to prisoners. oh well, money in darren’s commissary can buy him a chocolate bar if he wants it.

i am considering a trip to bella coola again this summer, the possibility of being up on that part of the coast in july seems a ripe and welcoming fruit after a hard winter. if there is anyone out there interested in such a journey, please let me know, as there may be space in my car if i do decide to drive. july seems far off at the moment, but i know about the need to reserve time to savour a roadtrip across the plateau and see friends like old family in the cradle of mountains – a rendezvous worth promising and keeping!

writing and writing, i have been pumping out so much written material in the last few weeks, and even working on a short story during the in-between. i’m finding something in this, something capable and interesting. i am watching to see where it leads because i know at the end i will be different again.

one more thing:

i had a dream early this morning that i woke up in my house, and it felt like someone had been there, had been intimate with me while i slept and had knocked things over on their way out. when i arose, i started to walk through rooms, noting where changes had been made and things were tossed about. as i walked through my house, i found that the rooms were bigger than i remembered and full of things which belonged to the previous tenant. i was at once startled by these things, but also annoyed that the person hadn’t yet come back to claim them and get them out of my house – as though i knew they were there, but had forgotten about an arrangement once made. this was an unpleasant dream, and i was disquieted by it through the morning.

so i looked this up in some dream dictionaries online and as far as i can interpret: the shifting house suggests i am going through personal changes with regards to beliefs – i suspect the key symbol there would be the items belonging to former residents (not mine, but still in my possession), and the fact i believed my house and body to have been broken into would suggest a violation of the person ongoing but also could mean that some aspects of myself (once denied) may be coming to the fore. i believe all of these things are true right now, as this feels like a time of powerful change for me.