am i a slacker?

i just found out that i probably *can’t* get the required courses i need done in time to apply for the master’s program in counselling psych at athabasca university (i need to get another course as a pre-req i didn’t realize)… in order to get in i would have to finish 3 more courses on top of the two i am already taking by may 8th…. fat chance of that.

but strangely enough – i felt relieved about it when i discovered that today – because it takes the pressure off and i can take a few more courses even in the upcoming year which will bolster my application a lot (rather than just having a few required courses, i can expand on that a bit more). plus, i was wanting to take a couple of hands on counselling courses at the local community college and this will afford me the opportunity.

i feel like i’m slacking or something though to be taking an extra year at it – not that i’m sure i even am going to do that masters degree… the courses i am taking are interesting in their own right and i assume i will use the skills i am learning in one way or another. just taking courses is making me feel like i’m finally working towards a better me again – that’s enough i think? i don’t understand why i can’t just let go of doing everything in exactly a certain, perfect order.

it’s stupid.