oh my! i just realized that today is the one-year anniversary of the beginnings of this blog. in the past year i have posted 331 times – not quite an average of once a day but almost!
happy anniversary red cedar blog!
there isn’t enough time in a day-a week-a month for all the things i feel like doing right now. i’m not talking here about things i have to do – but want to do… read more, go for walks and hikes more, get the big and small stitching projects finished, set up my house, play more music, have more social time, have more quiet time, get more letters written….. the list goes on and on. it feels like magic, this new life of being undepressed again…. of actually wanting to do things rather than simply going through the motions in order to keep myself in the flow.
and herein lies the tendency to get over-booked. i had forgotten all about that busy-life i had before, but it has come upon me again and i’ve got most of this month full up with commitments in the city, on vancouver island and in seattle. i am trying to keep my time on the sunshine coast unbooked so i have an excuse to stay home and be a hermit when i feel like it.
this weekend my father is coming to help me with some household chores like steam- cleaning the rugs, painting the outside trim, and cleaning the moss off the roof (there isn’t much on there, but it needs to be done). once we get the rugs done i can move the rest of my stuff in properly. i currently have several boxes that either need to be stored in the small room downstairs or unpacked, but have been trying to leave the carpets free of clutter to facilitate the cleaning. this means that everytime i need something i have to root through boxes to find it – and that box-room has become a giant mess in the process.
on monday i ran up and down the coast in my little tercel burning gas on errands, but i managed to not only put in an order for 2 loveseats (first time i’ve ever bought new furniture that wasn’t a futon or an ikea table) but picked up a flat of plants for my deck. i still need to get some more dirt and plant pots to fit them all in, but i’m going to have gorgeous tomatoes and peppers and basil and lavender and bay leaf and curry plant and oregano all basking in the sun on the deck in no time. i haven’t put this much into plants since i moved out of the house on kitchener street and had to leave the garden and the greenhouse we built behind. finally i feel rooted enough (and with space) that i can make things grow again. once i am done with the house and deck, i will start on the small garden bed below to prepare it for fall and winter vegetables.
i promise updated pictures of my house will come soon – i just need to get a few more things done before i am ready to show it off. i am not sure whether the loveseats will be delivered in time for my housewarming party (on the 11th of june), because they take 4-6 weeks, but i did convince the people at the furniture store to ask for a rush job on them so maybe they will be ready on time. who knows? it’s not that much of an issue in any case – since if the weather is good people will want to be hanging out on the deck anyhow.
perhaps the beginning of may is busy for almost everyone, as most of my friends with blogs don’t seem to be updating much these days. i’ve been too busy the past couple of days to write much, but on the weekend i took pictures of some stitching projects to share since it’s been ages since i’ve posted on what creative projects i’m working on.
this is a small bookmark i made on sunday. i decided it was high time i learn more than just the traditional cross stitch because i am interested in stitching more freeform on linen and other fabrics. this is my first freeform stitching project and it utilizes four different types of stitches. it’s somewhat rough… but it does the job of holding my book place and it was fun to experiment with a nice simple pattern like this. i’m working on making simple hankerchiefs at the moment with butterflies and flowers in the corner, just to practice my stitches.

this is the large project i’m working on at the moment – a pillow front that is about 2 feet across and will eventually be 1.5 feet down. because it is long and thin at the moment, it is hard to get a good picture of, so i just focused on one third of the stitching near the end. the design is taken from an indian embroidery pattern meant for a handbag. it seems to be working quite well as a large canvas and wool project. i’ve been working on this since i finished the rug back in january.
friday turned out well, even though i went in to work in the morning and then had a hell of time prying myself out of there to attend the dialogue on democracy. the colloquium turned out to be so popular there was almost no seating left when i arrived a few minutes late. more than 70 people spent the afternoon participating in discussions about radical scholarship, the labour movement, and the grounds for activist-organizing. my biggest difficulty was in attempting to understand the grad students there, who all seem to be speaking some other language completely unrelated from the way people in the rest of society talk. once upon a time i did attend university so it’s not entirely foreign, but half the time i am not sure if the speaker is actually saying anything at all or if i’m just not getting it.
i was complimented afterwards for my part in the talking (speaking notes are in the post below this one), and other than a few small self-criticisms, i am pleased with how it went. my speaking skills are getting better lately, and i think mostly what i need is more practice and opportunities. i have been invited to speak on police brutality themes on may 19th at an east vancouver citizen’s assembly on police violence in the neighbourhood.
after the evening program which ended at nine, i walked over the silkhaus with some friends to see the ever-talented norman nawrocki and submission hold. both acts rocked (as usual) but the real highlight of my evening was in seeing some people i haven’t hung out with in awhile and whom i have known for a long time. being an activist can at times be alienating, and i have really come to cherish the people i have known for years who are in the radically alienated place. there is so much shared about that existence no matter how different our lives might be in other ways, i appreciate so much all that can be left unsaid as i muddle through my own questions and seek the way forward as an individual and as an organizer. i really am starting to feel recharged and able to engage with people and organizations on a more consistent basis again.
on my way home late saturday morning (a little hung over, but esssentially feeling generous of spirit), i ended up in a conversation with a senior in the ferry lounge with me. we started out talking about our hopes for the upcoming election but progressed from there into all sorts of other topics about the failures of the ndp in being true agents of change the why the labour movement is problematic. turns out he is an activist from way way back in the day – involved in labour and was a member of the infamous socialist caucus inside the bc ndp back in 1972 (of which svend robinson was also a part). he was a teacher in grenada just after the revolution and had the misfortune of being there when the us invaded, and told me a bunch of stories about working up north in the 50s. i got to fill him in on the radical caucas forming up in the labour movement in bc, and what some of the younger scoundrels are up to… we ended up eating lunch together on the ferry and talking the whole way, and as enjoyable as it was for me to hear the old stories, he seemed very pleased to get to tell them as well as realize that there are still people out there resisting just the way he did when he was my age. it was one of those nice moments of serendipity when two people meet and share something a little special, completely on accident.
i have managed to get more of my house set up as well this weekend, but today have really just been taking it easy. i am feeling the need to just work on some stitching projects i have on the go and be restful for a day. turns out this evening alison and ben are coming over to the coast and with sean we will have a band practice and then they will stay at my place for the night. fun stuff! it’s been ages since we have played music together.
this is the talk i delivered at the dialogue on democracy colloquium held yesterday in honour of the life of bob everton. i post it here for those of you who were unable to attend, or who are just interested in what i had to say there.
Appropriating Technology: Security, Internet Services and the Struggle
Notes for a Coloquium, May 6th 2005
First off, I would like to thank-the organizers for welcoming me here today – I can’t think of a better way to honour our friend and fellow activist, Bob Everton, than a participatory forum on the subjects of struggle that he knew best. It was both academically and politically that my life intersected with Bob’s over the years. He was completing his PhD in the Communications Department at SFU when I was doing my undergrad in the same Department, we both lived in East Vancouver for many years and participated in many of the same organizations and actions during that time, and Bob was a familiar audience-member at many Flying Folk Army shows. In short, we were members of the same community in struggle, and thus built a friendship based on those things in common.
When Bob was returning from Windsor, I did not find out through a phone call or email, but because the Resist! Collective received an application from him for an account on our system with a comment letting us know that he was moving back to Vancouver a couple months down the road. For those of you who don’t know, Resist! emerged from TAO Vancouver about three years ago and provides email services, mailing lists, webspace and blog hosting to individual activists and their organizations around the world – and it is this work and it’s place in movement organizing i am going to talk about today.
While Resist! is the service most Vancouver-based activists are familiar with we are certainly not the only service of our kind, and we are part of an informal network that includes Riseup.net, Mutualaid.org, Interactivist.net, and the old TAO crew – now known as OAT – it is on this handful of servers that a large share of North America’s radical communications traffic occurs on – each of us hosting thousands of users and their projects. Funding to run our boxes comes from a sliding scale user-donation model, and each of our organizations is run by small collectives of well-known activists operating by consensus. None of us utilize paid staff, though the donations we receive are generally enough to pay for bandwidth and hardware, and the day to day work of administering servers, approving accounts, setting up domains and so forth are carried out by volunteers.
Although people often think of us as the activist-hotmail, we really don’t see ourselves that way, nor do we hand out accounts indiscriminately – instead requiring applications for service to come with some detail about the individual and their activist involvement. We do this for two reasons 1) to ensure that the people using our services are on our side and 2) to preserve the bandwidth and space for projects worthwhile to our overall goals which include a pretty radical overhaul of society. There are people who do complain, both about our request for donations and about our approval process for applications, and some people have refused because of these things to move over from their hotmail and yahoo accounts – preferring instead to use these so-called free services.
I think that is unfortunate and this is where I get to the heart of what Bob Everton’s work in participatory media, democracy, and security come to…. why services like Resist! are essential to the struggle for a better world, and why individuals like myself have spent close to a decade – since the advent of the popular internet really – providing those services. The reality is, “Free Services” are not free – they are not free as in free beer and they are definitely not free in the sense of freedom – and the proliferation and attraction of these networks has real potential to damage our organizing abilities if we continue to rely on them. When we use these “free” services we not only give up our personal media space, our privacy and security, but our belief that we have a right to those things is eroded in the quest for affordable computer access.
We know that when we sign up for services we are giving our name and information to any number of direct mailing companies, but the reality is we are also giving our name, information and any data traffic assigned to us to the fbi, to the rcmp or to any other law enforcement agency that has a reason to ask for it. Hotmail and Yahoo were among the companies who willingly signed on to the now-defunct US government program Carnivore (a program designed to collect information about individual data traffic), and after 9-11 there were well-founded rumours that both companies allowed the FBI to blackbox the entirety of their mail systems. Blackboxing refers to a parallel computer system set up alongside a legit system, with the aim of collecting any and all information that passes through it – for later analysis and storage. This type of action has been compounded by an easing of wiretap and data-monitoring laws in the US and Canada which make it easier for governments to snoop utilizing these methods in a fairly indiscriminate fashion – often without warrants – and particularly when corporations open the door under the guise of protecting democracy.
In Canada there has been a white paper in discussion that is moving to a bill (check the status) dubbed the “Lawful Access” act which aims to collect wide-swaths of data about Canadian Internet users and would force internet service providers to keep logs and monitor for criminal use of their systems. If you have followed activism and IT for the past few years, you will know that the number one thing that law enforcement comes looking for in indiscriminate searches – is log files…. Indymedia, TAO and Infoshop have all been asked to produce log files showing their data traffic in a number of instances related to what the police say is possible criminal behaviour. Log files may or may not show who a user posting stories or comments is, or where they are located (or at least posted from) which is why they are of interest to law enforcement – and one way that activist servers have tried to get around this curiosity is by refusing to keep log files. Resist! for example, keeps no user log files, on any given day we could not tell you who has accessed our system and when – and although that can make challenges for system administration – it promises our users a layer of security they will not get from most other email providers. The Lawful Access Act would make it illegal for organizations like ours to refuse to collect log files and user data from each user – just in case the police ever wanted it. Lawful Access would also require that services like ours allow law enforcement to set up data monitoring hardware without search warrants, the idea being to put Canadian laws in step with already-existing US and British data surveillance legislation.
There are, of course, numerous examples of how this information is used against activism. Almost ever major summit post-Seattle has involved the RCMP or the FBI demanding log files and computer records from activist organizations. We have seen a crack-down on activist media projects such as indymedia and infoshop.org and the jailing of Sherman Austin from raisethefirst.com for materials posted on his web server. Many college and university activists have found their computer access blocked or refused after using their institution-based email accounts for organizing purposes. In the case of local activists David Barbarash and Darren Thurston, the RCMP went to their internet service providers (one of whom was VCN) with warrants that all traffic to their accounts be simultaneously diverted to an RCMP email system for analysis, as part of their investigation. As the technology has grown and morphed, so have investigative techniques designed to utilize the massive data trail that we create for ourselves each time we log in.
And this is where Resist! and services like it come in. As longtime activists, some of whom have encountered the intense scrutiny of the state at various times in our lives, we understood the value in appropriating the technology tools created by corporations and the state, and turning those into tools that were accessible and useful to people involved in grassroots organizing. A major part of our usefullness/functionality is our desire to create accessible secure workspaces and take principled stands against state surveillance and privacy encroachments as necessary. This work not only requires good planning on the technical end, but a political commitment to take risks as necessary – to host projects that are considered illegal under the Patriot Act, to be legally prepared in the event of search warrants or court orders, and to plan to lose as much information about our users on a day to day basis that we can. Resist! sees itself as part of the continuum of struggle and the projects we host reflect that – from the very community oriented “name some organization” to the earth liberation front – our work is responsive to those working for social change on all levels, which reflects the strength of radical media services owned by radicals. It is for these reasons that we ask that people seriously consider supporting the Resist! project and others like it, rather than allowing the “free” providers to use you as fodder for advertising, and to hand the cops the keys to your electronic profile.
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When I set up Bob’s new Resist! account in 2003 I had no idea that a short time later we would be hosting his memorial site as well, and it was in fact the first time we have ever hosted a memorial site for a fallen comrade. Bob’s resistance and his work have been inspiring to the people he encountered the world over, and his commitment to supporting community-based projects no matter how difficult they could be is a lesson i wish to always carry with me as I carry forward in the struggle. Although reliance on communications technology is a sketchy proposition at best in an era of potential ecological collapse, it is what we have to work with right now – the tools we have at our disposal to dismantle the system in which we live. Resist! aligns itself with the resistance around the world and we honestly believe it is only in creating “free” spaces will we ever find freedom – only in supporting our own community services will we ever develop the systems we need to support the struggle.