Away. Away.

I haven’t been blogging these last couple of days, just not inspired at the moment by myself – feeling a bit unfocused. But tomorrow I am going for 10 days and I’m pretty sure I’ll return with something to say.

I’ve got two new camera filters – a polarizer and an infrared…. so I promise weird pictures at least.

Will see you when I return to the keyboard. Not likely until after the 13th.

A first morning.

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I wake up after too-little sleep, snuggled into my warm bed with its quilts and pillows, and settle into a book brought to me in courtship. This is the new year… and although I’m tired, I am satisfied in this moment of abundance. To lose oneself in Istanbul writ on a page, while awaiting the lover who will soon come through the door is to feed romantic inclination on a number of levels. An opulence of imagination and desire soon met at the sound of the front door being opened and closed. The cool outside air puffs down the hallway, followed by the sound of footsteps coming towards my bedroom door.

"We need the possibility of escape…"

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It’s quiet here at work this morning though I find myself busy anyway – tying up loose ends, finalizing a report, sending emails for meetings in the new year… I’ve got a calendar with bookings until the end of April and a series of presentations to get ready for when I return from California. As much as I can drag my feet, work soothes me in its requirement for my attention. An occupying force of sorts, it helps crowd out the chatter that might otherwise rule me.

I’m finding myself a bit melancholy at the close of this year – tired, I think, of the holidays – and looking forward to my actual holiday in the desert which I leave for Friday. This would be *real* time off: without family and gift-buying and potlucks to make dishes for…. Just me and Aaron carried by ribbons of concrete into the sandy wash stretching from the four corners all the way through Mexico. Death Valley, the Mojave… Places I’ve not been before.

Every time I engage with the US desertlands I am reflective of Edward Abbey’s work, his love of the desert, his Monkeywrench Gang created to protect it. The heroism, the hardship, the sharp draw of arid land into the lungs and eyes. Unlike the rainforest offer of hemmed-in protection, the desert throws itself open to extremes – wide open spaces ending in slot canyons, parched floors alveolated by geothermal bubbling, valleys excavated by ancient oceans. As though you stand within the rise and fall of each past and present geological period – with the freedom to move between them. The escape from time and civilization is offered to us here, and as Abbey wrote in Desert Solitaire: “We need the possibility of escape as surely as we need hope.” And there it is, stretching out before us endlessly – a sand sea upon which to float our dreams of dismantling the grey towers which dominate, to sink the wrenches with which we have loosened the machinery, to untie the tethers which hold back our fantasies from realization.

Less floridly, Abbey writes these words:

Strolling on, it seems to me that the strangeness and wonder of existence are emphasized here, in the desert, by the comparative sparsity of the flora and fauna: life not crowded upon life as in other places but scattered abroad in spareness and simplicity, with a generous gift of space for each herb and bush and tree, each stem of grass, so that the living organism stands out bold and brave and vivid against the lifeless sand and barren rock. The extreme clarity of the desert light is equaled by the extreme individuation of desert life-forms. Love flowers best in openness and freedom.

Another few days, and I will be out of this tower of glass and into one of the most precious of the wildspaces left in North America. A brief journey, but one needed to remind myself of what is most important to my heart.. and probably a much better way to quell the chatter than working more hours.

2007: A catalogue of events

Life in 2007 was pretty damned interesting, and I daresay a little less stressful than 2006. The most notable events (in no particular order) were:

  • Winning a spot on the national bargaining team for my union.
  • Taking a trip to Anza Borego and the Salton Sea.
  • Traveling to Eugene for Darren and Chelsea’s hearings.
  • Experiencing a car break down and a car fire during said trip to Eugene and back.
  • Taking a ton of trips to Ottawa, and around BC for union and work.
  • Getting a new job with a whole new set of responsibilities.
  • Getting re-elected to several union positions.
  • Visiting a federal correctional institution in the US for the first time.
  • Going to Wild Earth.
  • Taking a number of photographs I am really pleased with.
  • Meeting Michael who tinkered with my world view.
  • Having a one month period of depression that was really intense – but working my way out of it just the same.
  • Talking to lots of lawyers.
  • Attending many parties at Kyla’s.
  • Throwing a baby shower for Anna and celebrating Cai’s birth.
  • Talking to Chelsea by phone for the first time since she was arrested in 2005. Meeting her family.
  • Winning a contest for a poem.
  • Writing a lot and realizing I can call myself a writer now.
  • Reconnecting with a bunch of people Facebook.
  • Dating a schwack of people.
  • Meeting Brian and no longer dating a schwack of people (just one who makes me happy – much easier).

All in all I’m damned grateful for all my experiences this year… Almost 35 and feeling stronger at the end of this year than I did last.

2007: A catalogue of things read

One of the reasons I started this blog (almost 4 years ago now), was because of a comment my friend Anarchocyclist made when we were in the same activist collective – that he would like to see lists of what it was I was reading because he was interested in pilfering off it for his own collection. I get this, because I’m always interested in what my friends are reading too – and so I started my blog off in 2004 with semi-regular book reviews. Sometimes I still post reviews here, though I’m not so on top of that these days – I figured I’d catch up at year end. Below is of course not a complete catalogue, but those things that really tickled me in 2007.

This year my reading habits were characterized by forays into a few writers who I finally got around to and fell completely in love with completely plus a few other finds:

Haruki Murakami

  • Dance, Dance, Dance (1993)
  • The Elephant Vanishes (Short Stories) (1994)
  • The Wind-up Bird Chronicles (1997)
  • Hardboiled Wonderland at the End of the World (1999)
  • Kafka by the Shore (2006)

People kept telling me that I had to read Murakami – and so I finally picked up a copy of Kafka by the Shore while nosing through bookstores with Anna in Ottawa last winter. And woah, he’s a weirdo in true Vonnegut style which set me off on a Japanese fiction reading kick that got me researching the surrealist period in Japanese literature. The only conclusion that I really came to through that is that most fiction in that genre is really not my cup of tea. Murakami keeps things on the level enough so that his surreal creations are still accessible to my western mind.

Fortunately I’ve only read about half of the Murakami novels out there so I’ve got plenty more to go through in 2008 – and he’s still churning them out – in 2007 he released both a book of short stories and a new novel which I will possess once they are no longer in hard cover.

Peter Carey

  • Oscar and Lucinda (1988)
  • The Tax Inspector (1994)
  • True History of the Kelly Gang (2001)
  • Theft (2007)

During the same book finding expedition in Ottawa, Anna mentioned to me for the umpteenth time that I should read Peter Carey – she loved Oscar and Lucinda so much that it was the only book she had ever finished reading then started again from the beginning. During an entirely different trip to Ottawa, I found myself in need of something to read and managed to find a copy of the True History of the Kelly Gang which has won it’s place as one of the ten best books I have ever read. Really, it’s a beautifully-written period piece in which the character is so firmly stamped as to draw you right into his life. Two things about Carey stand out to me in all the work of his I have read so far: his incredible ability to get voice right in his characters (no matter whether they are 19th century Australian outlaws or the developmentally delayed brother of a famous artist in the year 2000), and his inspiring use of language in metaphor. The way he uses words is pleasure in itself, regardless of story – which I’ve never quite felt about any writer before.

Like Murakami, I have not even made it to half the books that Carey has produced – and so will be further pursuing his work to fill my mind and shelves with.

Orhan Pahmuk

  • The Black Book (1990)
  • Snow (2005)

One of my co-workers raved about Snow and she was right – it is one of the most beautiful tragedies I have read. I’m starting to sense a pattern here as this book was another picked up on a trip through the Ottawa airport for a read on the way home. I later read the Black Book which was his first novel and recently given a better translation for sale on the English-speaking market. Drawing deep and intricate stories, Pahmuk has such a grasp on the Turkish world of which he writes that I found myself completely drawn in to the center of his labyrinth stories. A slow read for me as the writing is dense and rich with symbol (not to mention religious and cultural history I know nothing about). Pahmuk won the Nobel prize in literature for 2006. I am currently reading Istanbul which Brian brought me last night, and it is so far a beautiful and highly-readable memoir of Pahmuk’s life intertwined with the city he has lived in for his whole life.

Terry Eagleton

  • The Illusions of Postmodernism (1996)
  • After Theory (2004)
  • The Meaning of Life (2007)

I had a period of spiritual and political introspection this year that had me reading a lot of Kierkegaard and Wisenthal among others – but no writer spoke to me as much as Eagleton through this whole process on both fronts. Re-reading The Illusions of Postmodernism is what started it, but picking up After Theory really got me going on Eagleton again because he somehow manages to discuss the political, philisophical and even spiritual crisis on the left without being a pompous ass about it. The Meaning of Life is less about the failure of leftism, but takes on the question from a rounded philosophical perspective that is both entertaining and enlightening. I suppose what I really like about Eagleton at the end of the day is that he writes about dense topics in a way that is enjoyable and not suffused with inaccessible, academic language. How to Read a Poem and Holy Terror are both awaiting my attention on the reading pile – so those will for sure go in 2008.

A few other things I enjoyed:

  • Long Way Down – Nick Hornby (2007)
  • Until I Find You – John Irving (2007)
  • Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close – Jonathan Safran Foer (2006)

Each of these novels is worth a read, especially if you like offbeat and amusing literature. I really loved Until I Find You (which, incidentally, was also picked up while traveling for work) and would recommend it highly.

Finally, this was my first year subscribing to McSweeney’s Quarterly which is a literary journal I have soundly fallen for. Each journal takes on a different form of book, both beautiful and strange, and they are packed full of edgy short stories, essays, novellas and poetry. My subscription just ran out so I will be renewing shortly – it’s a little expensive, but each journal delivered to my home brings me a new rush of excitement at what it will look like and contain. Highly worth it, if only for the quarterly thrill 🙂