Where and how to write.

I was away last week in Ottawa, which is part of the silence here for the last little while. But more than that, I haven’t been much up to blogging lately which I think is a byproduct of forcing myself to write everyday before work – most of which isn’t blog content. I’m finding the whole “writer” thing to be a bit depressing at the moment, whereas when I just blot I’m much happier about my writing. It’s not that the writing is better, but I have the instant gratification of being read – every day if I want – which just isn’t the case with the serious business of writing I’ve been attempting for the last year or so.

So I’ve decided to give it a break for a month or so – the writing first thing in the morning gig is up for the moment – because it’s burning me out and I have three blog projects I would rather give my time to. While it’s true that the dedicated writing every day produces better content, I feel limited by it, and quite frankly a little oppressed by the culture around getting published in a dwindling print-market. Why is it so important anyway? I have gone through periods of having more new readers per month on this blog than many journals have in their subscriber base. Oh, right, because my content here isn’t vetted by “those who know” and so I’ve deemed myself unworthy. One more reason to dislike myself is not something I need right now.

It’s just a break though I’m sure. I know the daily routine assists my output of more polished and well-thought-out material, but at the moment I’m not feeling competetive enough to get up every day and challenge everyone else for a spot on the page. I promise, though, I’ll be writing here and Amongtheweeds and Viaduct instead. Because I can’t not write, it’s just the where and how I write that shifts.