One step and then another.

I’m feeling better today than I have in ages – not entirely on the other side of things – but definitely more balanced than I have been. My friend Will has agreed to take my place for November 1st and will be sharing the space with me from September until I move out which means I’ve got to get focused now on reorganizing the downstairs part of my house and turning my enclosed carport into a storage locker of sorts. I still have no idea what city I am moving to, but I don’t really care at this point as packing up my house has to start happening by the end of this month in any event. Having a friend move in and take over my place as I transition out makes things *way* easier even though I’ve got to get some stuff done a little quicker than I would otherwise.

Beyond that – I’ve got friends coming this weekend and next, and am staying in town tonight to go the Prisoners’ Justice Day event at Trout Lake and then out for dinner with a union friend all of which I’m looking forward to.

I’ve really appreciated all the feedback and calls over the last few days from people – I’m feeling a lot better about the decisions that I’m making cause I’ve been so overwhelmingly supported. There is a woman I work with who is going through a similar thing (she lives in Squamish and her commute is killing her and she wants to try working out of Nanaimo etc. etc.) – somehow hearing that today made me feel less like a flake and more like other people… As in, fuck, none of us are perfect! I’m definitely not as antsy or overwhelmed today – but I also can feel in the back of my ribcage that I am easily triggered at the moment so I’m trying to be careful about what I think about.

I’m glad I decided to take extra time off and cancel all travel plans this month. I really do need the rest.