Sad, lonely, and moving.

I’m a bit down at the moment – and am thinking I might want to move later this fall – perhaps back to Vancouver, or maybe Victoria. It just depends on what happens with finding a job there at this point.

I feel a bit stupid about moving right now – I only bought my house last spring – but I’ve been working out my union and work calendar for the fall and it’s shaping up to be as stupidly busy as the last few months have been. Bottomline is I’m tired, and the long commute isn’t feasible when I’m gone three weekends out of four. What’s the point? It’s not as if I’ve got all this enjoyment time of my place to make the commute worthwhile.

Plus (and here’s the part I hate to admit), besides being really tired all the time – I’m lonely on the Sunshine Coast. I really don’t have enough of a social life there, and find it impossible to build one because I’m either too tired, or never around. My family and friends all live in other places, I can’t stay awake late enough at night to go jam with other musicians, and there’s no freak-coffeehouses for when I feel like talking with strangers.

I know you can be lonely anywhere, and it’s my state of mind making this more difficult to bear at the moment – but thinking about another dark winter of 5 am mornings is making me real depressed and I think it’s probably not a bad idea to see if a change of location helps a little.

I’m going to rent my house out for November 1st and one of two things will happen:

1) If I get a job in Victoria in the next few months, I’m packing all my stuff and heading down there.

or

2) If I don’t get a job in Victoria in the next few months, I’ll leave most of my stuff on the Sunshine Coast (packed into one room of the house) and rent a temporary apartment in Vancouver until I can find work in Victoria and move there.

I don’t really want to live in Van again, but I also can’t just give up working, so it’s all really dependent on the job hunt and what happens between now and November.

Interested in renting my house in Gibsons? Email and let me know. I’m sad to be thinking about moving again (that will make three times in three years pretty much), and I love my house – but this lifestyle that was supposed to be healthier is wrecking me!