Scrambled like tofu.

I can’t believe I have neglected this blog for over a week! I’m blaming it on the hectic pace of the last few days and the fact I’ve been exhausted during my downtime. I’m back at work today and tired from the weekend – and I leave for Colombia in 10 days – so I’m hoping to get a little chill time before then.

I’m scrambled at the moment – work kicking my ass and wondering what the hell I’m doing trying to be in three places all the time. I’m tired, bone-tired, from airtime and ferries and crappy food and having to be permanently on-guard as I navigate airports and traffic. I need more than a good night’s sleep at this point – but unfortunately the break from everything isn’t going to be a possibility until later this summer.

I know this sounds like complaining but really, it’s not – I’m not unhappy, and generally speaking I would rather be engaged with the world than sitting around at home being “bored”. On the other hand, I’m not sure I can sustain the daily commuting if I am also traveling one or two weeks of the month – and I’m feeling a strong desire to “collapse” my life back into a single municipality of at least work and home if not work/home and family. I’m definitely not in any decision-making place – but on the way to Ottawa this week, I ran into an old boss of mine who suggested there might be a position for me in Victoria doing communications for a different federal installation. It’s all very up in the air – but she seemed positive about my interest and said there might be something coming up soon.

A year ago, moving back to Victoria was only vaguely on my radar – but because I have been spending a lot more time there in the past year – I have started to feel that after twelve years I could go back. There are lots of reasons why – but the fact my parents are aging, I have lots of old friends, and it would be much easier to have a child on my own there (if that’s what I decide to do) – are all part of the big-picture. One of my major difficulties in considering Victoria as a place to move in the past couple of years is really related to the lack of work-opportunities for federal government communications professionals. If a possibility to work federally out of Victoria does arise – then I will really have to consider that quite seriously – despite the fact I love my little house on the sunshine coast. We’ll see what happens though – there is not even a job posting yet – but I am readying myself for more turmoil just in case.

My weekend in Victoria was actually very relaxing (I spent two days doing little more than writing and eating), watched the hockey game, stayed at Greg’s and saw my family on Sunday. I get to go home tonight which is exciting after being away for a week, and am looking forward to a little daily routine until I leave next Thursday.