Red Cedar
More apocalypse, less angst
perfectly mortal.
my body is definitely telling me i need to prioritize exercise, stretching, and meditation today. suddenly i just feel so *unhealthy* which i’m sure correlates to the lack of sleep and amount of smoking i have been doing over the past week or so. sheesh! it all catches up so quickly these days. i just made up a schedule for myself, that if i was disciplined would actually work. unfortunately it requires getting up at 4:30 in the morning (half hour earlier than i do now) to get in some stretching and qi gong before my shower.
as i said – this would require discipline i’m not sure i have in great supply at the moment. it also would require a less-than-erratic schedule… and looking at my work/union/social calendar for the next four months… it’s a doubtful proposition from that angle as well. turns out i’m going to be away from home quite a bit in february, march, april and may (harrison hotsprings, prince rupert, victoria 2 or 3 times, vancouver/new westminster and then toronto). i’m wondering though, if it wouldn’t be better to try to have some type of meditation/stretching/exercise schedule particularly *because* my schedule is promising to be crazy over the next little while. it might actually keep me on track (and away from drinking and other yuck things).
the only good thing about being on the road is i don’t usually find myself in a situation where i have to get up before sunrise – on the other hand, i often find myself eating badly and staying out late at the pub. it’s too easy when there’s all that socializing to do!
please remind me again why i can’t live a perfectly balanced and healthy life? oh yeah, not yet graced with enlightentment. right.
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Red Cedar 
With my current round of insomnia I’m often still awake when you’re getting up. I’m having massive rink cravings nonetheless, even if I’m dragging my ass. Skating’s good because it’s physical and social at the same time, so I can kill two birds with one stone. Also it’s good for dates. Mind you, it’s also close to the pub, so it’s too easy to go for a drink afterwards and still get home at 2 a.m. I’m all stamina and no discipline.
lately i have been breathing and meditating during the “inbetween times”. for example, i breathe on the bus to school. i meditate when i am waiting for my next appointment or i do walking meditation. this has been helping me a lot lately. in the summer i seem to be more willing or able to get up at the crack of dawn and do my spiritual morning work…in winter is a whole different story. every second of sleep i can use means an entirely different kind of day. and now that i am doing this “inbetween time” work, my days seem easier to get through. my moods are lighter. i think having moments all through the day to breathe and meditate is really helping me be in a a healthier state of mind throughout the day…it lasts longer…i sleep better. i wake up more refreshed and ready to go. i’m sorry you are in insomnia land again Meg. i will send you some sleep fairies to help you rest.