Red Cedar
More apocalypse, less angst
things no less than the day before
although things are no less fucked up than they were yesterday, i have managed to replace the sickly sliding into a black hole feeling with something resembling my normal self (though a very distracted and internally amped one). a cranial sacral treatment, a homeopathic remedy and a good night’s sleep appear to have curtailed the impending shatter, a event that would have been no use to anyone and quite possibly dangerous to myself.
two weeks tomorrow and everything so different from two weeks today, a world viewed through grey-tint and suspicion, a head full of howling memories, and an encrypted jaw wired shut at the source. this is the new life, in which i make sense of all things i didn’t see and try to bandage my own dreams. who knew that doors could slam shut as quick as this?
but here it is, the machine grinding foward grand juries and trials. february, march, and then? we will see what awaits on each date and afterwards – hold tight and wait – tick-ticking the time past zero until darren is allowed to come home, until the endlessness of courtrooms is over. will freedom be our reprieve?
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Red Cedar 
I have not been reading random blogs like yours for long. They are a damn sight more interesting than most TV shows (except for Corner Gas). Today’s posting is easily the most unsettling one I have read yet.
It sounds like you have lost somebody to a foreign gulag. An old friend found himself similarly cut off for a decade quite some time ago. He is doing well now.
On the Illusion of Blackness: perhaps you are past such a solution, hard to tell from way over here, but I’ll pass it on anyway. Have a read of the information you can find in your computer about S- adenosyl methionine.
I would also like to pass on word that American Anarchist Fred Woodworth has had to seek expensive medical care and is in need of any assistance the world’s libertarian community can extend. The Any Time Now website has information. atnzine.net
Megan,
My greatest sympathies for your friend. I hope you are otherwise okay. Home from work nursing a flu. Lots of changes. Living in Oliver, B.C. , getting married at the end of April and looking for work in Canada. Have an interview as forest technical school instructor in Dawson Creek and an interview in Castlegar with the Ministry of Forests.
If there is anything I can do let me know.
Nathan