an argument for minimalism

i admit, i find a melancholia in moving, even when i am not very attached to the place i am living. perhaps this is an argument for minimalism – for each thing i touch, look at, wrap and pack into boxes carries with it a history, an emotion, something that feels as though it has passed. i find myself listening to concertos in the minor keys and longing for people who have gone through me and beyond, which slows down my progress immensely – in reverie for what was and what i hoped would be different. (i am sure this is assisted by the fact i have decided to break from my lover for the time being to give my heart and head a rest from that situation.)

at least this time the move contains no forcible trauma, no reason to flee other than my own desire to be of the propertied classes (however low in that pecking order i might be). i am not afraid either, and i am quite a bit proud that i have been able to do this on my own…. so although the going through of my possessions makes me lonely in the moment, i have a lot more positive to latch onto this time around.

this past week of work was hella-busy and a little stressful, the stress part mostly owing to the total lack of sleep last weekend. i slept 11 hours last night which has got to be some sort of a record for me (i find it difficult to sleep more than 7 hours in a row most nights), and am starting to feel more a part of this realm today than i have all week. i’m sure another night of that and i will feel right as rain for the upcoming weeks of work and moving i have ahead of me.

and incidentally, i have decided i will have my housewarming in june – and of course, all of you who know me are invited. i didn’t have a housewarming when i moved here in the fall, and i’m pretty sure there is some law that says i have to entertain once and awhile even now i have moved out of the city. there will be details forthcoming – but i promise excellent food and a place to stay for those of you who wish to journey from elsewhere.

(i did have some new photos i took to post, but at the moment have mislaid my camera cable and so can’t upload them – in the meantime i have posted this photo of bullrushes i took last fall in eastern washington somewhere near tonasket).