Red Cedar
More apocalypse, less angst
steady work solitaire
there was a brief moment this afternoon when the sun came out and these tulips in the front yard caught my eye. since most of the day was a torrential downpour, it seemed appropriate to catch the small moment of striking colour as the sun flitted through the break. unfortunately it did not last and blue sky has only come back just now as dusk is falling.
today was spent divided between chores and projects. since i spent last weekend away and was incapacitated by exhaustion most of the week i had a bunch of stuff to get done this weekend. i did manage to put an hour and a half into music this morning – and i realized that before i stopped playing entirely in october i had put new strings on my fiddle and was working on some music i quite like from both the bluegrass and klezmer traditions. it was great to go back to that today, though unfortunately my small muscle co-ordination and stamina need some work as i am horrendously out of shape. this isn’t the first time i have quit for an extended period of time and i always end up kicking myself for letting it go so dramatically. (thank-goddess for muscle memory)…. i need to find some other musicians to play with up here — i’m really not such a good self-motivator without a band, even though i love the noises i make on my own….
i’ve also been kicking around some ideas for the bob everton colloquium since i’ve been asked to supply a title for my “intervention” as the program is being prepared. i’m thinking of something like “appropriating technology: security, internet services and the struggle” though i’m not so sure about that as a title, it is likely going to be the theme of what i talk about – how resist! and projects like it provide a necessary link in the radical media continuum in an era of increased security concerns and state crackdown on activism – essentially.
last night i was reading a piece a friend wrote about bob and something in it, a phrase he used often (“democracy without participation is simply rhetoric”), reminded me with startling clarity of the sound of his voice – of the look he would have had on his face saying such a thing, the taste for revolutionary change that never wore off. the loss of him is still so strong in my heart, even three months later i find it difficult to believe i am preparing a talk for an academic memorial in his honour – am not sure i can speak about him in public without my eyes tearing at the corners.
but it is all part of the process i know, and i suspected that working on this brief talk would stir in me some of the grieving not yet put to rest…..
besides that i started working on the concept for the piece for the art & craft auction though i’m pretty sure the piece i am working on to flesh it out will not be the piece that ends up there (i’m not even sure i have the time to put something together in the middle of my move – but it’s giving me a chance to think through a small project idea that has been in my head for awhile….). i plan to finish stitching the top row of the project i have been working on for the past two months tonight and will post a picture here later (after i finish with the laundry – bleah).
One Comment on “steady work solitaire”
Red Cedar 
i didn’t know that bob was dead. and how sad. here it is 4 and a half months later and i’m wondering how i missed this news.
i’m glad i came to your blog today.