music and moving

it really doesn’t feel the same as last time, this moving houses. when i read back the posts from packing my apartment on commercial drive and all the sorrow involved in that, i’m reminded that i’m not nearly so fragile as i was eight months ago. i don’t feel driven out, i am not afraid of myself or anyone else, nor am i melancholic for other periods of my life. quite the opposite, i have been feeling incredibly empowered and affirmed lately in who i have become over the last few years (and yes, i know the last couple years of difficulty are an important part of that as much as i would rather have not gone through them).

i managed to get my g3 laptop hooked up to the stereo and about half my music collection transferred onto it. for the first time ever i can listen to my whole collection of goran bregovic through proper speakers (alll 5.25 hours worth) much of which i have never burned out to cd. i realized today when i was working on paring down the system that the g3 was really a computer on the brink when the logic board died last – the cd player doesn’t work, the speakers are shot, the keys are all fucked up and of course the logic board is so tenous it can never be a portable machine again – making it an excellent static candidate for serving up music.

and on a totally unrelated note – my landladies called me today to tell me once more how disappointed they are with me because we had a verbal agreement i would stay for a year (note – verbal agreement – they didn’t want a lease because they wanted the flexibility to move back in if their circumstances changed). i do understand their frustration though because it’s pretty clear i’m acting solely in my own interest and not in anyone else’s in this situation. i don’t do that very often – act in my own interest without feeling guilty about it – but i’m having a hard time mustering much concern in this case – i can’t afford to pay the rent out until august, and there is a rental shortage on the sunshine coast so the house won’t sit empty – it really sums up to a minor inconvenience to the owners.

anyhow – it was just a day today – getting things done to move and hauling boxes out of the basement for packing – which i started on the books this afternoon. i promise not to blog endlessly about the moving process this time as i know how tedious that gets… suffice to say it’s progressing as it should be.