less than charming

i am finding myself less than charming today and i just had a meeting with a manager and a human resources advisor about a case i am working on as a shop steward, and am wishing i could have been a little bit more *on* – though i’m not sure if i feel uneasy because of the manager’s awkwardness or mine.

some days i really don’t like myself for no good reason – i just don’t understand it because other days i think i am great. i strongly suspect brain chemistry has something to do with it. i wish i could schedule all my meetings for days when i don’t feel like a loser.

in any case, i am going to drink beers with jess tonight as that seems to be the only real option at this point.